|
Home
C&D
Trent
FourFour
YBF
ConcreteLoop
Stressing
|
2:13 p.m. on September 19, 2008 I cannot get any more stressed. I could sit here and think of all the things that are going wrong, but that wouldn’t necessarily be the most positive thing to talk about, yet its clouding my matter of function and idle thoughts. I was called Avant-garde. What ever. So Houston looks like Katrina. I’m supposed to go visit but now everyone I know is pretty much homeless or don’t have electricity. Lovely. I’m on the verge of a… So yeah, I was looking into having weight loss surgery and I have been researching it for months. I finally reached a point where working out and my health has become the main issue of concern. For some reason I’m all paranoid that I’m going to die of some fat disease. I can’t find the time… to take care of myself and my health. So, I started researching the life span of weight loss patients, and I could not find anything on patients past 10 years. It is a fairly new procedure but, there is nothing researched on the longevity of the patients. Then, I ran across an article that said most weight loss surgery patients die around the 13th year from malnutrition, and vitamin deficiency. The surgery, yes saves lives for people who might have died earlier than 13 years, but indeed having weight loss surgery is about mobility and quality of life for the remaining time you are still alive. So I never went to my consultation appointment. I also have issues about being cut. Plus I need to see someone live past 13 years of weight loss that have successfully kept the weight off. So, now what’s going on? Nothing. I work, go to school, do homework, work some more, and still struggle everyday wondering what I’m doing wrong with my life, that I have to struggle so much just to make to the next day. I can’t really be depressed because that doesn’t really help my situation. I’m just in frustration with everything that is going on. Sometime I think I suck at life. But I guess not anymore than anybody else. So, I have friends now. Yvonne, and Elizabeth. Yvonne is Mexican and Elizabeth is white. No black friends. I tried to find some but I can’t. I like Y and E. they are pretty cool plus they aren’t people that I feel I have to be guarded around. I never have that awkward silence where everyone is uncomfortable and looking at the floor for fear of saying something crazy and have everyone thinking they are weird. I want taco’s. Oh and if you wanna know why I’ve disappeared check out youtube.com/eb0nie. You’ll find me. |
Hello Readers, Thanks for coming to my blog. I expect lot's of comments! I have had this blog since 2003, and sometimes I wonder why I started it. Everything I write here is from my personal experience; things I find interesting, and my personal opinions on what's going on in the world. If you are offended easily this is not the blog for you. You are welcome to stay as long as you like as long as you respect my personal space. Don't make me act "ethnic". That will be all.